CHRISTMAS ...... CARIBBEAN STYLE!!

Ahhhh.... what a nice way to spend Christmas. While I wouldn't do this every year, it was nice to get away and be in the hot sun for awhile. It is a holiday that both my boys will remember for many reasons. Here are some:


1. Austin getting sick (truly sick.... and still is sick). Although he enjoyed himself for the first 3 - 4 days, the last few really wore him out.



2. Collin being at that "magical" age of 5 and truly loved seeing all the characters. That age still holds the innocence of believing that the characters are real.


3. Collin jumping to me off the catamaran ( 20 ft. of water ) and him holding on for dear life as we swim ashore to the beach. I was swallowing more salt water and going under trying to get us to shore while he had a "death grip" around my neck. Felt like Tom Hanks in Castaway.


4. Watching my boys dance to island music on the catamaran and soak in the warm rays.


5. Spending an afternoon on Magen's Bay in St. Thomas. What a gorgeous place to be. Apparently, Michael Jordan owns a home over looking this beautiful spot.



With the exception of Austin getting sick, we had a really fun time. This trip was planned over 16 months ago, so it was great to finally enjoy the magical trip. I hope everyone else had a great Christmas, and I'm going to attach some pics from the trip. Oh, friends and family.... I will be sending out "New Year's" cards, for we were so rushed to get out of here for the cruise :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM US

It's almost been 5 years, that's so hard to believe. If I could send a letter to Jody, this is what it would read.

Our boys are doing great, and they are growing like weeds. I have a feeling that you are looking down and I hope you are pleased.

I've kept my promise to you, as I'm sure you can see. Not only am I involved with soccer, baseball, but now even Little League.

Austin has your charm, and your ability to talk. Collin is always asking about you, as you passed right before he began to walk. Please don't worry, Austin, Collin, and I are doing our best. However, it hasn't been the same since you left.

On Christmas Day this year, the boys and I will be on a cruise. We will be on a catamaran.... for we wanted to try something new. Please keep an eye on us and hold us close to your heart. Not a day goes by where you are not in our thoughts.

Merry Christmas Love!

p.s. I miss you

PIZZA ANYONE????

I'm still touched by the kindest gesture my friend did for the boys and I Friday evening. After going thru a nasty tooth extraction Thursday morning, I thought I would just bounce right back to my normal self. Not the case. I went to work on Friday and was basically miserable. The pain medication was making me sick to my stomach but if I didn't take it my jaw just throbbed. My friend advised me to take Friday off also, but I didn't listen... no surprise there. I try to save my sick days for the boys when they are going to need me, so I didn't want to burn a day just on me. Anyways, by the end of the work day on Friday I must have looked pathetic. Austin and I left school and picked up Collin. As I was holding a "take-out" menu in my hand that evening, our dog Cody started barking very loudly. I thought my neighbors must have people over. However, our doorbell then rang and there stands a pizza man looking at me. I told him he must have made a mistake because I didn't order a pizza. He then verified the address and asked if I was Angela. I said yes BUT I didn't order a pizza. He said that the pizza had been paid in full and was to be sent to me. I asked the man who had done this (even though I pretty much knew) and he said he didn't know.

How blessed I am to have friends that look out for me and the boys. This simple gesture meant the world to me because I knew it came from the heart. When you surround yourself with positive people who really care.... great things happen. There isn't room for negative people who do nothing but complain. I wish for everyone to have "true friends". People they can count on, people they can talk to, and people who will send a pizza out when you are sick. A miserable day that ended wonderfully due to sincere friends.

GET YOUR MOTOR RUNNING.....HEAD OUT TO OHIO!!

That's right.... I did it!!!! The boys and I drove to Ohio to spend Thanksgiving with family. While we usually spend Thanksgiving with my immediate family (mom, dad, brother, etc..), we drove the 11 hour trip out to Cincinnati this year! I missed my family back home, but boy oh boy, what a sense of accomplishment. Since we all were in school on Tuesday, we stopped over night in Hagerstown Tuesday night and then made the rest of the drive Wed. I must say that I am so proud of my boys for being great riders in the car and just enjoying the scenery and singing songs together. They didn't have gameboys, toys, or even a working dvd player and they were just fine. Only had to raise my voice a few times.... other than that, GREAT trip!

Finally got to see 2 new additions to the Martin family ( Madeline and Kyle). Maddy just turned 1 the day before we arrived and Kyle is just 9 months. Beautiful children. Stayed with my cousin and her family and the boys and I felt right at home. Although we were only there for really 2 1/2 days, it was well worth the trip. The boys and I had a GREAT time, we just wished we lived closer. Turkey Day was spent with family and Friday we went downtown Cincinnati to ice skate, take a carriage ride, and go thru a famous display of trains (decorated for the holidays). Friday night was a surprise party for my cousin's sister in-law. Had a blast just having a few beers (knowing I had an 11 hour drive the next day) and talking to people I never met before. Had a blast playing a game us Marylanders would consider close to horseshoes.... but it was called corn hole. Huge game out there and it was fun to play. Steve ( my cousin's hubby) should be making me a set in Redskin colors.

All in all, it was a great way to spend the holiday. Today it's unpacking, laundry, grocery shopping, and of course football. I will say that this trip had me anxious at first. Knowing that I was responsible for all three of us driving 11 hours thru mountains and jumping deer..... but I did it! Hopefully my boys can see that sense of responsibility and pride and realize that we are a great family of three. After Jody died, my security and Austin's were shattered (Collin was too little). Hopefully, little by little, they are gaining it back like me.

THE GULLS WILL NEST.... WHILE THE MULES CONTINUE IN THE DIVISION 3 PLAYOFFS!

What a game to watch!!! Nov. 17th at 12:00, the Salisbury Seagulls had to migrate up to Scotty Wood Stadium in Pa. to take on the Mules. The boys and I drove up Friday night and stayed with Coach Knarr ( Uncle Jeff to us ), Katie, and cousins... Megan, and Jake. The funny part is that all season long a good friend of mine and I were talking how cool it would be if the Mules faced off against our hometown team.... Salisbury. Even though I graduated from Salisbury (which is a great college), my loyalty was with family. Having watched Jeff thru the years move up from high school football coach to coaching at Muhlenberg College has been exciting. This is one person who always knew what he wanted to do and does it well.... very well!!
Back to the game! Mules came out with the drive to win this football game. I believe they were up 21 to 6 at one point. The first half of the game was the best from the Mules offense. However, their defense remained strong the entire time, which in my opinion helped win the game. After half time the Gulls came out and tied up the score and the stadium was quite taken back. The defense from the Mules took charge and caused 3 ( I think) turnovers, which allowed a 31 to 21 VICTORY over the Gulls. Mules will now travel next weekend to Dover to play Wesley College for game 2 in the NCAA championship playoffs.
Muhlenberg players, and coaches should be commended for all their hard work and dedication to the game of football. Also, the families of all the coaches who sacrifice so much to support their spouse. Many don't realize, but football started the first week in August. Coaches at Muhlenberg work, work, and work. There is much to be said for the wives of the coaches at Muhlenberg. Not only are they supporting their husband but also raising a family alone much of the time. So my hat goes off to EVERYONE!!!!! Job well done, and best wishes to you all when you come and play Wesley. GO MULES!!!!!!!!!

COOL PICS!!!!

Here are some pics from the Skins vs. Arizona game that I went to with a friend. Game was great and it was nice to kick back and relax and watch the Skins pull off another win (although it came down to the last few seconds). Tried to get as many pics of COOOLEY for my friend Amanda... as well as me! Notice the rear shot Amanda....just for you!!! Cool part was getting a picture of all the Redskins cheerleaders for my boys. Just had to spin a wheel and you received whatever it landed on. I talked to the guy in charge and asked if it could (with his help) land of the poster. After he realized I had 2 boys at home that would just love the poster.... he made sure it stopped on it. Great day, great time, and I thank my friend so much for inviting me.

AND THE WALLS CAME TUMBLING DOWN!!

Wonder what my grandfather was thinking when the beach home he built back in 1968 came tumbling down? For those of you who don't know, my grandfather (along with others) starting building a beach house in Ocean City for his family to enjoy back in 68. Unfortunately, my grandfather never saw the completion of this house because he died on site while building this house. Most unfortunate, I never had the opportunity to meet my grandfather, but heard many wonderful stories about him. I wonder if he is aware of how many lives he touched, how many generations made this beach house a "home".

Some key moments at our beach house : going to the beach with my brother

waking up Easter morning to filled baskets

cousins always coming to visit

going out with my dad on the boat

taking friends out on the boat

steaming crabs on the deck every other day

Lacey's special island

surviving hurricanes

clamming in the bay or tuna fishing offshore

Dairy Queen with my grandmother

meeting my future husband

having him propose to me on the deck ( in front of close family and friends)

bringing my own boys to the beach house

There are so many other memories and wonderful times that I experienced at the beach. I just hope my grandfather knows that he not only touched his daughter's life (my mom) but also generations to follow.

It was quite a bummer walking on the property that use to belong to my family and not seeing the beach house. My parents sold the house 3 years ago to a man who is made of $ and plans on building an enormous house on the small lot. That's all that O.C. seems to do anymore. Big house on the canal and no yard to play in. When my grandfather was building, our house was only the 2nd house on the dirt road. You could see out to the bay when you stood on the deck, backyard, or anywhere in the house. Now, the homes are so large you can't see anything. Hence the picture below. This was a new home they just built on the same street.

I'm glad I have my memories, because O.C. just isn't the same. I usually don't wish ill will on anyone, but I hope this man who demolished our home doesn't find any joy or pleasure in the new house being built.

CAN THEY BE BEAT???

Well, wouldn't you know...... they won AGAIN!!! This win wasn't like the rest. This game set many records for the Mules. First, in the last 13 seasons, McDaniel has beaten Muhlenberg. Today, Muhlenberg destroys McDaniel and shuts them out 43 to 0. Muhlenberg is now 6 and 0, and three of those games have been shut outs! Next outstanding record is that Muhlenberg College hasn't been 6 & 0 in over 60 years. History is being made this year, and I am just so proud of the players for all their hard work and dedication, and also to the excellent coaching staff.

I obviously will always root for "Jeff's team" as Austin will say. He is Austin and Collin's uncle, my brother in-law, and ... a direct link to Jody. I know Jody is looking down with pride and cheering along with me and the boys. Keep up the great work Jeff and we can't wait to see you guys in just a few weeks.

BECAUSE OF YOU!

I have been singing this song ever since I heard it. Reba McEntire duets with Kelly Clarkson. It's basically talking about people who have complete control over others, and not being able to live a life together with love and trust. Sad but true! One line really stands out to me, and it reads, "I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life ~ My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with."

I know my life with my late husband was only 11 years but God did we have a great time. I didn't have to fake a laugh or a smile, in fact.... he was the one who usually brought out my laughs and smiles. Because of him, we created 2 beautiful children. He taught me so many things and for that I am forever grateful. I don't think I would be where I am today if it wasn't for him. We had our arguments... just like everyone else, but we always managed to work our differences out. He broke my heart when I had to say goodbye to him and then my heart broke again when I had to tell our 4 1/2 year old that daddy had died. My heart was completely broken. Was that his fault? Hell, no!

I just feel sorry for people who are in relationships where the spark has faded or has just gone completely out. Life is too short.

Make sure you are with someone who if God forbid was to leave this earth.... your heart WOULD break. Not like in the song, where her heart couldn't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with. Every person deserves true love and happiness :)

FOOTBALL FOOTBALL AND MORE FOOTBALL

Couldn't ask for a better weekend for football in my family. First, undefeated Muhlenberg remains undefeated (now 5 & 0 ) after destroying Juniata 44 to 3. Once again, I applaud the staff and players for a job well done.

Next, my Skins!!!!!!!!!!!! The score says it all...... 34 to 3. Offense and Defense did their job AND a JOB WELL DONE, I must say!!!!!

Last, the most meaningful to me is the football pool that both Austin and I are in. I won the pool last week and was doing a great job again this week. However, so was Austin. It came down to the Green Bay and Chicago game last night. Every person in the pool except me picked Green Bay to win last night. If Chicago lost, that meant it came down to points tonight between Austin and another player to win for the week. I so desperately wanted Austin to win and I was cheering Green Bay on to win the game (yes, I stayed up late to watch the game..... just to see if Austin had a chance). Well, as most of you already know, Chicago won and I won the football pool again for the second week in a row. The best part was waking him up this morning and telling him the news and his attitude about it all. He was a little upset that he didn't advance but was still happy for me. Needless to say, at the end of the day I gave Austin the winnings ( the big pot of $13) and to him it was like hitting the jackpot. What great boys I have and what better attitudes!!!!!!! Hope it remains :)

GO MULES!!!

Yes! Yes! Yes! My brother in-laws team (division 3 football) is now 3 and 0. The first two games were shut outs and today was a nailbitter, but they pulled off their 3rd win with a 14 to 13 victory. Way to go Jeff, and all the Muhlenberg staff..... Austin, Collin, and I are proud of you :)

NIGHT NIGHT....PHILLY!!!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

I must say that I didn't see the entire game. We had Back to School Night last night, and in my hurry to get home I ran up on a curb and popped my tire. Then I get home (basically ridding on three wheels), I turn on my new flat screen to watch the beginning of the game. Told Austin he could watch the 1st quarter with me. Nothing real exciting and I put the boys to bed with the game tied 3 to 3. My big mistake was NOT coming back downstairs to watch the game but watching it in BED. Needless to say, I fell right asleep. My phone even rang and I never heard it. I left the t.v. on all night (which I never do) and I never set my alarm clock.

Well, what a shock to me when I wake up this a.m. and see the score 20 to 12!! Watching the highlights was awesome (nothing compared to seeing the real thing... but then again I was sleeping). Cooley making the awesome catch right before the half and then Portis sealing the deal in the fourth. Not to mention that Jason Campbell looked pretty good himself. McNabb..McShabb..... he played horrible. He is usually the leader of this team,but not last night.

Best part is that my son and I were the only ones to pick the Skins in our football pool. How nice it will be today to see the MANY people who teased me all week and just smile.

VICTORY IS A WONDERFUL THING........... GO SKINS!!!!

HERE WE GO AGAIN

As my boys grow older, I realize that I will always be BUSY. No time for mom to be sick because we have w-a-y too much to do. This past week I have been on numerous medications to cure a viral or bacterial infection....which one?? My doc. doesn't seem to know, so I have scripts for both...YEA!!! However, being sick can't slow me down. Just like last spring when both my boys were playing baseball, now both are playing soccer. Collin just started Lil' Kickers today and had a great time. So Austin played at 9:30 and Collin played at 11:00. After all games were said and done, we hit Pat's for lunch. By the time we make it home.... I feel like a truck has just run me over. Hence, a nap for 2 hours followed. Tomorrow it's grading papers, grocery shopping, and of course..... NFL!

I would like to compliment my boys this week on being true gentlemen and "taking care of mom" when they could. Kindness goes a long way. Also, a great friend at work who would jump in with the boys if anything "illness wise" was to knock me down for the count. That's great to know that someone is there for your children. At least until my mom could make it down. Friends are great!

So here we go again! 2 boys. 2 schedules. 1 busy mom.

A SPECIAL TRIBUTE

I was watching a show the other day where Dave Trembley (manager of the O's) was talking about remembering your past, your roots, where you have come from, and defining moments that have made you the person you are today. When I think back to my childhood, much of it is foggy. However, one special child changed my life forever and taught me life long lessons that will never be forgotten...... my sister.



Lacey was born when I was in third grade and started her life with many health complications. Children's hospital in D.C. and Georgetown University hospital almost seemed to be her home away from home. When I grew older my parents and I would take shifts on spending the night with her because we always wanted someone with her. As her sister, I always shared a room at home with her... so this only felt right.

As time went by her health was a constant battle. At times, we didn't know which was worse... the illness or the side effects from the numerous medications. She fought a hard battle her last stay in the hospital (I believe was 3 1/2 weeks) as my mother, father, and I stood beside her and said goodbye.

What did I learn from my sister?

1. Never give up
2. Stand up and speak your mind for those you love
3. Never let an illness stop your laughter
4. It doesn't matter what color you are... what matters is how you are treated, and how you treat others.
5. Hold hands and snuggle with your loved ones

There are many other lessons and memories that I will always remember from Lacey. Also, from the doctors, nurses, her school, my coaches, etc.... who showed TRUE compassion. You can always tell who really has true compassion because it SHOWS, it's not just words but it's ACTIONS.

Make sure you let your loved ones know how much they are cared for. As I have said many times before in my posts, "It's not how many breaths you take, but how many moments take your breath away."

HOW MANY DAYS LEFT???

How can I put this???? I may require med's, captain @ coke, and a whole lot of prayer to get thru this year. Please keep my sanity in your thoughts and prayers.....I surely do need it!!!

WEARING MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE

God help me tomorrow!!! As the first day of school approaches tomorrow, I'm not worried about my own class, but that of my youngest son. I'm confident enough to know that my students and myself will be fine, but my youngest will venture out tomorrow into the "unknown". I know this is a typical motherly reaction, but it doesn't make it any easier. For the past 2 years he has been in a private daycare and floated with the same group of kids. Friendships were built and he knew his routine. Now tomorrow.... he will leave my school and ride the bus (which he has never done before) and enter into a huge school, a new classroom, new students, and new routines. After school he will ride the bus to his old daycare and see many old friends (he's looking forward to that). You only have your first day of K once in your life. I just pray that everything goes smooth for him. His teacher seems great but there is so much I couldn't really talk to her about when I met her on Friday. I have friends over at the school that I just hope will look out for my little guy.
I know if I'm an emotional wreck today.... tomorrow won't be any better. Please just say a little prayer for Collin and myself tonight. I think I will be holding both my boys tight today and enjoying our small little family.

Summer Rewind.....

Now that Summer is coming to an end and I head back to work tomorrow, I'd like to think of all the positive moments that have happened this summer.

1. Watching Austin play in the All Stars
2. Spending days at the pool with wonderful friends
3. Finishing 3 novels
4. Visiting N.Y. for the first time with a nice friend to show me around
5. Austin loving football camp
6. Visiting the Sullivan's pool and just relaxing with No pressure
7. Spending time in Rehobeth with my brother and sister in-law
8. Siesta Key beach for vacation
9. Celebrating Pop's b-day at Mid-Evil Times with the entire family
10. Watching Collin learn how to swim :)
11. Going to the Shorebirds games
12. Staying up late and sleeping in


Instead of being sad about returning to work, I'm trying to look at all the great times I've experienced this summer with my 2 boys. I realize it's usually those simple little things in life that makes me feel fulfilled as a mother. I'm sure I'll have tears in my eyes as I head out to work tomorrow BUT I also know we had a GREAT summer together as a family. Thanks to all who have shared in our summer memories....it's been awesome!

YUCK...YANKEE STADIUM

August 15, 2007 ....... 1:05 game. Yankees vs. Orioles @ Yankee Stadium.

If you're a Yankee fan... I'm sorry. My family and friends went to this past Wednesday's game, and all I can say is, "What a let down"!!! Maybe I'm a little spoiled because I'm so use to Camden Yards and before that Memorial Stadium but Yankee Stadium is truly the pits. I realize it was built in 1923 and they had renovations from 1974-1975. Maybe they should have renovated for longer than that. However, even at a 1:05 game.... I had a strong grip on my youngest and my oldest had to hold tightly onto my back shirt to walk thru the stadium. The hallways seemed only 5 feet in width and people were on top of one another.

As an O's fan, the game was great... except for the rude Yankee fans that didn't care about throwing out any curse words that came to mind (even with a 5 year old just inches behind them). My brother in-law warned me about wearing any O's stuff, but my youngest had his jersey on and I had my shirt and hat on. Fans didn't harass us, although we kept our cheering rather quietly.

I realize they are building the new stadium right across the street ( hopefully it will be a major improvement than this stadium). When we left they blocked off exists and we basically had to walk completely around the stadium and jump a fence to make it back to our parking lot. Remember this is the Bronx, and I wasn't feeling too comfortable with this. We finally get to our parking lot only to sit for a half an hour before we finally move. To make the long story short, we took MANY wrong turns and even went down a one way street, and finally was on the right path about an hour and a half later.

I guess it was just a let down because you think of the Yankees and you think $, and A-Rod, and Jeeter. I didn't imagine a small stadium (even my oldest asked why the field looked so small), and filth everywhere. I wanted my oldest to experience another stadium other than Camden Yards but I won't be taking him back again. Friends were great to be with but I can't imagine sitting thru all that mess again. Best part was seeing the O's kick butt in the extra inning on Yankee territory.

Go O's and if you're a Yankee fan, I hope this new stadium is much better than the one I sat in. You deserve a much better stadium!!!!!!

FEELING... HOT HOT HOT

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it's off to Siesta Key we go!!!!!!

FAMILY VACATION IS FINALLY HERE!

Pro's : waking up to the soft waves gently rolling upon shore

swimming, snorkeling, and goofing off in the clear, warm water

jumping into a refreshing pool

lying on the private beach and getting a nice brown tan

eating out at dinner every night

Con's : Can't think of any.

Hope everyone has enjoyed a nice vacation this summertime. This will be a nice break for the boys and I, along with friends, to enjoy a nice vacation together. Nice to relax before heading back to work :) Take Care!

WHERE IS FOOTBALL IN MD????

O.K. Maybe I haven't researched this enough, but where is football in Wicomico County? Besides Salvation Army, and Tom Brown, the only other one I know of is the Pop Warner in Delmar. Seems like the kids here can play soccer all year and baseball. I'm kicking myself for not checking into the Pop Warner earlier. I guess I'll know better next year to sign my son up in the spring.

Another thing, has anyone noticed the the Dick's Sports store has the logo outside with the balls going from bottom to top like this: golf ball, baseball, soccer ball, basketball. NO FOOTBALL!! Is this just a regional thing? I go to buy sport chairs for my boys and they come in groups of three: baseball, soccer, and basketball. Once again, no football. It's frustrating for kids who love the sport and understand it, and then not have the zillion of opportunities that kids elsewhere have. Maybe I need to talk to my friend who is in charge of all these camps around Wicomico and find out what is going on. Or maybe I just don't know. If anyone knows of good instructional camps (this side of the bridge) please let me know.

FOOTBALL DONE RIGHT!

This blog may be a little bias, but "WOW", what a super job Muhlenberg College did during their Skills and Thrills football camp. While my oldest could only attend the first three days, he received some GREAT strategies from the football staff of Muhlenberg themselves. They were able to rotate the kids around thru all staff members which included head coach, assistant head coach (my brother in-law :), special teams coordinator, and other local football coaches. Breaks were given when they could eat their lunch, take a dip in the pool, watch some football clips, and have some great motivational speakers come in and talk to the kids. Austin could come home and give a play by play account on the day ( wonder who that reminds me of??? ) and just talk about what a great time he had. While I only saw about half an hour of one practice.... I was truly impressed. Muhlenberg's camp director did a fantastic job! Thanks for keeping the game of football alive in Austin!!!!

OH..... SO PROUD!

Oh my goodness!! Austin played in two tournament games today and I am quite proud! Did they win both games? No! However, their team played so well together and my son's effort was quite noticeable. He smacked 2 doubles, and made many great defensive plays..... I couldn't be happier. Most importantly, is his attitude. He loves to play and is respectful with all his coaches and players. So on paper, yes, they lost. But in my eyes, they were winners! Dad had to be beaming down with pride today!!!!

POSITIVE VS. NEGATIVE PEOPLE

Thank goodness I have positive people ( for the most part ) to hang around and be a POSITIVE influence for my boys! My positive friends and family are the best people to go on trips with, take vacations, and are always there to cheer you up, or show you a different way to look at a situation. While we may throw jabs back and forth, we know it's all in good fun and we can always count on the other.

Now for my negative people.........WHY??? Obviously, you can't be happy ALL the time, but you have forgotten how short life can be. Who wants to live their lives always looking at the negative side of a situation or letting simple strangers upset you. YOU CAN'T CONTROL THE ACTIONS OF OTHERS!!!!! Those who anger you...control you!

Also, think who you would like to spend a day with. Someone positive or negative....that answer should be obvious!

PATIENCE

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.


My close family and friends know why I posted this :)

AND WHERE WAS MY CAMERA????

Spent a wonderful afternoon over a good friend's home the other day with the boys. IF I ONLY HAD MY CAMERA!!!! My friend and his wife have a beautiful home with a nice size pool in the back. The boys were in heaven. What was amazing to me, is that my youngest opens up only to a select few (adults). What was amazing, was that he trusted Mr. Ross enough to let him carry him thru the pool on a boogie-board. He had a blast and had complete trust in Mr. Ross. He only turned 5 a month ago and he goes under the water, but will always just hang near the steps. That's his comfort zone. So to see my youngest venture out and take a leap of faith was awesome. He wouldn't even come to me. Just wanted Mr. Ross. Wonderful day, wonderful friends, and once again a moment that took my breath away!!!

4th of July!

4th of July Letdown

Maybe it's just me, but is anyone else feeling the 4th of July letdown blues? I turn on the news this a.m. and all I see are the injuries and even deaths due to either malfunctions, or human stupidity! Many families around our country are spending countless days in the hospital now due to such mistakes. What happened to the "simple" celebrations? Baseball games, trips to the beach, clam bakes, cookouts, etc... It would be nice to just turn back time and celebrate the 4th the way we use to. Imagine the money that would be saved and even lives. Something to think about.....

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

As the pieces of wood, metal, shell, or glass of wind chimes move in the breeze and rebound off one another, they produce a blend of resonant tones.
Wherever we are, whatever we do, we, too, blend and interact with those around us in a chorus of harmony that enriches our lives and the lives of others. We do not have to be alike to be in harmony with one another. Through our variety of ideas and from our diverse backgrounds, we contribute to and complement one another.

AND I THOUGHT BASEBALL WAS OVER

Well... here we go AGAIN! On my summertime list, I never included baseball...which I guess now I should have. Austin playing in the 7/8 league was chosen to play on the All Star Team for 2 tournaments this summer. I was very proud of him for being chosen, since there are over 80 players in this league and only 24 were chosen. However, I didn't realize that these 2 tournaments meant practicing 3 x a week until our July tourney.

We just finished our first one this weekend in Willards and the team did GREAT!!! We won 2 out of 3 games. I don't want to brag too much about my son, but he did GREAT defensively and a good job offensively. On top of having a fever all weekend long.

So if you can't find me at home, just reach me on my cell and most likely I'll be at the baseball fields. And most of you who are reading this know that I absolutely LOVE it!

HAPPY SUMMERTIME TO EVERYONE!!!!

TGI....SUMMERTIME

SUMMERTIME = 1. being a mom all day

2. staying up late and sleeping in

3. boating and beer

4. reading novels again

5. flip flops, pony tails, and hats

6. brightly colored toenails

7. RELAXED time with family and friends

8. July 4th on the boat with friends and beer

9. sandy beaches and cool pools

10. vacations

If you can add on to your favorite summer plans, please do so!!! THANK GOD IT'S SUMMERTIME!!!!!!!

GIVE IT UP FOR......M.O.Y. (MOTHER OF THE YEAR)

Well, a proud moment for mom!!!!!
I have always wondered (after loosing my husband) could I handle all the decisions that come with raising two little boys. Anyone who has a child, realizes the enormous responsibility.... but doing it ALONE truly scared me. Then a friend tagged me with the nickname (MOY) when I forgot something in regards to my oldest ( I can't even remember now what it was...I think his bus#). That just raised my insecurities even more.
Well, my proud moments have come. Austin received straight A's in all the above level classes ( Reading and Math) and earned numerous awards at the end of the year. Besides the typical "completion of 2nd grade", "gym", "choral", etc..... came the real biggie, which was the President's Award for Educational Excellence. This pretty much combines classroom grades and standardized testing scores and only a handful of 2nd graders received this honor. On top of all this, we just received today in the mail, that he has met the criteria for magnet placement!!!! While I know there are pro's and con's to this magnet program...... I am soooo proud of my son. Makes me feel like I have done my job well as a parent, and sticking to our routines ( which some of my friends think are too strict) has paid off. Whether he goes or not ( he would rather be with me at my school) doesn't really matter. What matters to me is that he worked hard all year with a very strict teacher and earned every single one of those A's.

So M.O.Y. is going to celebrate tonight with a few drinks and a movie with a special friend and realize that I'm doing a GREAT job as a mother!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN LIFE THROWS YOU A CURVE BALL

O.K. Most of you know that these past 2 weeks have been like a roller coaster ride. While I have unfortunately focused on the negative, I have quite a bit to be thankful for.

What I wouldn't be able to do without :

1. Friends at work who just pop into my room to tease me or just smile and give me a hug.

2. My mother who calls every day to check in on me and the boys and is willing to sit and listen to me and even cry along with me....if need be. And lately, it has been a NEED.

3. Baseball. Both teams have been a stress relief at times and then a huge headache at other times. Regardless..... I LOVE IT! And I love to support my boys.

4. A dear friend who has been like a second father to me and has gone out of his way to make sure the boys and I have something to look forward to. Imagine a basketball hoop, a flat of portulaca (flowers), and a card sitting on your door steps when you have had a horrible day at work. This is just one example of many.

5. Friends who can drive by and flip the bird to one another.

6. Silly e-mails to just cheer someone up.

7. My team mom. I would be lost without her.

8. Family and friends who know when to leave you alone or MAKE YOU cheer up.

9. A new special someone who shows up with a bottle of wine and a smile....hmmmm.

* Thanks for all of you who have been supportive these past few weeks and never turn a deaf ear. You guys are appreciated more than you know!!!!!!!!!!!!! (That's for Amanda :)

Career Change.... Any Ideas?

As of today, I am thinking very seriously of a career change. Anyone with any suggestions.....please comment!

PICTURE PERFECT DAY!!!!

WOW, is all I can say!!!!! I am still in awe of yesterdays' Fruitland Little League's Opening Day!!!

Just to note a few highlights:

1. Listening to a wonderful friend call out the names of each and every team.

2. Beaming with pride as both of my boys run across the field ( one doing a half flip / slide at the end).

3. Coaching my team as they play a wonderful game.

4. Laughing out loud as my 4 year old runs out from center field to hand me a "flower" (dandelion) he found. Then yelling at him to get back in position.

5. Getting a "pat on the back" and "thank you" from many supportive parents.

6. Helping out coach my oldest sons team and beaming with pride when he was pitching, hitting, fielding, or just goofing off. God, would his dad be so proud!!!!

7. Yelling and cheering for sooo many of my students at school. Trying to cheer one up when he struck out twice.

8. Last, but surely NOT least....enjoying my good friends and family. What would we have without our friends and family???

I can't say enough how very proud I was of my two boys, and of myself for sticking with this hectic schedule. A beautiful day that will always be special to me.

I've said it before but: It's not how many breaths we take but how many moments take our breath away. Again, special moments that my boys and I will always cherish!!!!!

PRICELESS......

Some things you just can't put a price tag on: PRICELESS

* listening to your children SLEEP
* watching a 5 yr. old run to base with the bat still in hand
* looking into the eyes of "awe" and "wonderment" as the plane takes off
* holding a new-born baby
* giving the new-born BACK to parents
* taking a nap
* knowing you have friends that will always put a smile on your face


WORTHLESS:

* Negative people (why??? life is too short)
* Always complaining but never fixing the problem
* Rude, arrogant people ( why do they think they are so much better??)


I'd love to thank all the people who have made my life PRICELESS....... you guys are great!
Worthless people are just that: Worthless.

Gender Stereotype...... WHO CARES????

It amazes me that it is the year 2007 and we still have such pathetic gender stereotypes. Hello??? June Cleaver no longer exists, and it's pretty sad if men really want a June Cleaver.
While we shouldn't paint with such a broad paintbrush ( I like that phrase a friend once said ), it's hard not to attach certain qualities to the male / female. Male--- macho, strong, doesn't cry. Female--- soft, loving, and nurturing. There are many more of course but I believe that every person is unique regardless of gender and shouldn't be "labled" by stereotypes. I know many GREAT dads who have "fatherly instincts" but society only uses "motherly instincts". Men cry...that's GREAT!!! That shows they are human and NOT weak!
WHY THIS BLOG, YOU MAY ASK?????
This week I have felt a lot of pressure of being a woman who is coaching Collin's Tee-Ball team. Imagine that!!! A female coach! Women don't know anything about baseball, right?? While I have many fathers who will do anything I ask of them, I have just one or two who in my opinion can't stand a female coaching their child. They have an arrogant, take charge attitude that is getting quite old. Let's just say, next practice they will see a different side of me they may not like...OH WELL!!!
Also, my doctor this week was an arrogant jerk. His ego is the size of a barn and if I was a male, would he have crossed the line and asked those inappropriate questions???? DOUBTFUL!!! What burns me up is that I didn't question his inappropriateness. I didn't stand up for myself!! I was in pain and was taken aback by his questions.... but those are just excuses. I should have told him he crossed the professional doctor / patient line. So I'm basically more upset with myself than anyone else.
With two boys, I play the role of mother and father. I don't want my boys to feel that they have to carry the load of "dad" to help out and loose part of their childhood. Unfortunately, this has already happened with my oldest. I want them to realize that our small family is just fine. My youngest is now starting to ask lots of questions about "dads" and you can just see the confusion. Bottom line... I don't want my boys to see stereotypes. I'm not a bionic mother, ( I try to be ) but I want my boys to know that it's o.k. to just have a mom AND that mothers can do "dad" stuff and that it's O.K.

Thanks Doc!!!!

Since I only visit the doctor when I am ill, I was kinda taken aback by my doctors demeanor today. I'm 34 and have been blessed to NEVER before have a bladder / urinary tract infection. I had heard they were quite painful. Well today I experienced the full sha-bang!!! Felt a lot of pressure in the lower abdomen and a frequent urge to urinate. No burning or anything but a constant pressure that finally had me bent over in pain during my math class. So I call my doc. who says, "We'll see you at 4:00". GREAT!! After talking to friends at school I realized all I needed was a week of antibiotics and I would be just dandy. I urinated in the cup which tested positive for the bladder infection BUT I wasn't prepared for the questions that my doctor proceeded to ask. He asked if I was sexually active. I said, "No". And then he asked me why not??? Why not I said??? I said that I was not in a relationship where I felt the need to be intimate with anyone. Then he said, "Are you o.k. with this?" I felt I was being grilled by my doctor when all I needed was an antibiotic for a bladder infection. I told him that I was very happy with my life right now and am too busy... I wouldn't have time for a "true relationship". What the hell??? Why was my doc. hounding me? I asked how I could have possibly gotten the bladder infection and the three most common ways had nothing to do with sex.
It made me mad driving later to pick up the prescription. Was he insinuating I needed a man?? A sex life???

Questions I ponder.....Hmmm!!

Doing some self reflection today and wondering WHAT I really want and WHY. Some of my friends envy my life ( I wonder why? because I dont). Not having to answer to anyone, making my own decisions, and basically running my family the way I feel is appropriate. While this may sound GREAT to many.....it's also a lonely life at times. I have wonderful, supportive friends and family and I'm constantly busy with teaching, Austin's baseball, now coaching Collin's team..... but there is still that void. The sad part is.... I'm getting use to that void and wonder if I will ever want to rearrange my life to let another in.
Many know that I am stubborn and competitive. But I'm also fun, energetic, and loyal. For my boys sake I hope that we will have a family of four again.... I know they need a male figure to look up to. I on the other hand, may just be happy to be alone!
If life was perfect (which of course it isn't) I'd have my husband back and the family we planned. Although I'm past the "angry" stage and I've accepted what life has thrown at me... I still get pissed whenever I watch those medical shows and I see patients in very similar conditions that my husband was in and they of course miraculously pull thru!! That's horrible to say..... I should be happy for these families but instead I'm upset that this same miracle didn't happen to my family. Why did my boys get delt a bad hand??? Will I be able to raise them up correctly and have their father look down with pride???
People call me strong.... but little do they know that I'm terrified that I will screw up my boys lives and I'm not as confident as many believe. It's almost like an "act" sometimes. Some people think I just need the right man in my life and I'm just wondering if I want a man at all.
I'm even wondering why I'm blogging about this. It's quite personal!! However, only close friends and family read this and respond. They probably already know half this stuff anyways. Just one of those sentimental days I guess.

LET'S PLAY BALL!!!!!!

Yes, baseball is finally here!!! No more inside soccer and driving home in the dark. Days will be spent outside on warm sunny evenings practicing the beloved sport of baseball. Many of you know that this year I will have 2 boys that will be involved in our Fruitland Little League ( whew... lots of running around for mom ). However, I was asked by my older son's coach to coach my younger son's team. HA.... was my initial reaction. Then I really thought about it and realized that I could really pull this off. Knowing I will be living at the baseball fields anyways....why not lend my talents of coaching??? ( o.k..... you can stop laughing now ) Knowing that I have soooo much patience (ha) it should be pretty fun watching a bunch of 5 and 6 year olds chase butterflies and play in the dirt while trying to teach the basic fundamentals of baseball. I'm thinking a big bottle of xanax should do the trick!!!

But on a serious note.... I think my husband would be proud of me and hopefully this will be a lasting memory for my son. I still think about him when I'm faced with decisions about our boys. What would we do? How would he react? I feel great about this decision and I hope I'm making Jody proud!!!

Now........... let's play some ball!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Opps... there should be a pic of a baseball field in the top left corner, but obviously I don't know how to do this yet!!! Sorry

OH YES THEY CALL HIM THE STREAK!!!!!!

My family consists of my oldest son... who is 8 , my youngest son...who is currently 4, and of course myself. We try to stick to a pretty strict routine during the week and weekends are filled with sports events ( between 2 boys...whew!! ). Anyways, let me get to the point of this story. Tuesday and Thursday nights my youngest always has an appointment between 6:30 - 7:00. During this time my oldest and I usually run errands or complete his homework. Half an hour isn't a lot of time to really accomplish too much. Anyways, this past Tuesday my oldest and I drove real quickly to the local grocery store to pick up just a few items. My oldest is a big help to me and on the way out he was carrying 2 heavy bags to the car. He started laughing to me that his pants were starting to fall down. I just told him to keep walking and he'll be fine. Needless to say, the laughter gets louder and louder and I look over at him to see his jeans down by his ankles and him still walking and carrying the bags. We were at the car by this time and we both just fell to the ground laughing hysterically. While on-lookers might have found us "crazy"........ we celebrated a magical moment. Someone once wrote: Life isn't measured by how many breaths you take, but by how many moments take your breath away. Let's just say, that night took my breath away and I know it is a moment my son and I will never forget. I also learned that night that I need to buy a belt for my son. HA!!!

Whew!!!!

I finally set up a blog! Not too painful, just took some time to design the page itself. My blogs will most likely consist of my ever hectic life, family, and dear ol friends. My life is easily described like a roller coaster ride.... so come along for a ride.... I'm sure you'll enjoy lots of laughs.